Friday, April 4, 2014

And Isn't It Ironic

Some of you may remember this blog I started in September 2010. During that season of my life I was what I like to call "spiritually high". I had just been baptized and I was so in love with Jesus (and still am of course)! I felt like I wanted the world to know all the things he was doing in my life. I wanted everyone to hear about our creator, and the amazing things he can do in our day to day lives! I was so confident Jesus had this wonderful reason why he called me to write this blog... From the very beginning back in 2010 I named this blog "My Life in 60 Days". At one point I even wrote a blog titled, Has it been 60 Days yet?!?! I thought maybe the Lord would have some great plan for me at the conclusion of my 60 day blog. Through the time I was blogging the Lord did reveal His promises to me, speak to me through His word, and He grew my faith.... but needless to say I never made it through the entire 60 days. Of course the Lord knew that would happen! Life got really crazy! About a month after starting this blog the world crashed down on my shoulders. I became burdened and life became so heavy, my blogging discontinued, and slowly my faith began to fade. I had no idea, but my last blog post Don't Question the Unanswered was simply the Lord preparing me for what was to come.... and trust me I was pulled through trial after trial, to a point of meekness and humility, I was miserable! At some point I thought maybe God had forgotten about his promises for me. I thought maybe it was all just my imagination, and maybe the world was right about this whole have faith thing. Don't get me wrong, I still knew my Lord, Jesus Christ, my creator, and my father, but I was disconnected from his desires for me. I wasn't looking at my life through his perspective, and things got really difficult. (We will get more into that trough the next few weeks.) But here I am, feeling the Lord calling me back to this blog... and guess what... Just as I feel the Him calling me back here... I just so happen to noticed it's 60 DAYS BEFORE MY WEDDING!!!!! Ironic some may say.... but my momma would call it a "Godsidence". This time I am making a commitment to myself, Jesus, and my readers that I will bring you through the next 60 days as the Lord prepares me and my wonderful groom-to-be (Bobby) to say our I do's!! I will reveal to you how the Lord speaks to me, how he uses small things things to remind me He is there, and simply invite you in to explore my life.


 Let me begin by telling you how I felt "led" to write. Before I was a Christian, I would hear this statement "the Lord led me" and be totally confused! So what does that really mean??? Of course He is not physically leading me here and no this blog didn't just pop up and say write Jess write... but this is how I felt led by the Lord: On March 28 I was on my way to work, and I was listening to KWAVE a local Christian radio station here in CA. On this peculiar series of Wisdom from the Word Bethany and her hubby were being interviewed by her father and pastor Bill Welsh. Hear for yourself as Pastor Bill Welsh interviews his daughter He emphasized much on marriage during this interview and led Bethany to tell listeners how the Lord prepared this couple for marriage. At one point in their life, Bethany actually felt hesitant to marry this man. She asked he hubby-to-be if she could spend some time alone before her wedding to focus on Gods intention for her life. During this time she spent a lot of time reflecting and writing. It was at that moment is when I heard the Lord telling me to start writing again. Encouraged by this message I designed a web site www.diomartichwedding.com and I had so much fun writing about my and Bobby's special day. On the top of that website there was a time tracker counting down the days until our wedding. That day it was at the 60 day count down. And that was it! It dawned on me I already had a blog titled "My life in 60 days" and the Lord was calling me to write again. Well me being me, I pushed it aside, and ignored The Lord.... haha not so fast though, sometimes it is way to hard to ignore God... and if you Fear Him as He has called us to do, ignoring Him is the last thing you want to do! So, last night as I lay down to read my devotion, The Lord made it very clear to me that I should start writing and that this blog was intended to be written, and the time was NOW! My final push from the lord came from Jeremiah 1:12 "Get yourself ready! Stand up and say to them whatever I command you. Do not be terrified by them, or I will terrify you before them." That wasn't it though, on the side not devotion of this page it specifically says "What message is God asking you to deliver for Him?"

The devotion sealed the deal for me... Okay God, I hear you calling! I will write! As I said , I am now dedicated and determined to post over the next 60 days. I will take you into my past and show you what work the Lord has done as well the things God has just begun in me. I have no outline for this blog and my writings will be completely random. I will write whatever I feel "led" to write about. But you can trust that I will be prayerfully committed to my post with faith that someone out there may find peace, hope, encouragement, perseverance, and most importantly a love and desire to know Christ though this blog. With that, let me encourage you today! Are you feeling called or led to do something? Do it! The Lord rejoices in our discipline, and there is no greater feeling then to know you are obeying our King. Sometimes discouragement set's in, or we just don't understand why we are feeling led to do something. But God sees a bigger picture and knows what is best for us all. Follow your heart and the will of the Lord, and I trust it will bring you blessings!